I write a lot about the work I’m doing to transition but sometimes I forget to talk about how amazing the results are. So here are some things that are giving me gender euphoria right now.
I finally found the perfect haircut for me that blends the curly femme with the aggressively queer. And I love looking in the mirror because of it.
Every once in awhile I catch a wiff of how amazing I smell. I still haven’t gotten over how nice it is to smell like a girl and not like a gross sweaty boy.
I’ve reached the point in facial hair removal that I only have a couple of small patches to shave every other day and I can’t stop touching my nice, smooth face.
And have I mentioned how awesome it is to have boobs? Because there is nothing that makes me happier. My body is finally starting to feel right and filling out my dresses properly without help is a big part of that.
I’m planning on starting lessons next week to feminize my voice but I’ve had a lot of people tell me recently how androgynous it already is. When I heard myself on the recording from my surgical consult I was honestly amazed myself because I apparently have been slowly and subconsciously changing my inflection over the last few years and my friends are right, it is much higher than I perceive it. It’s fun to see how surprised people are when I tell them I sing second bass (the lowest part) in choir.
And speaking of choir, having a place where I can sing and not having that be gendered is a glorious thing. I love my choir family and I couldn’t ask for a more supportive group of people.
I’m sure there’s more but I’ve probably rambled enough.